2011-A Year of Change

I cannot help but smirk a bit as I put the title on this.  I got so tired of hearing the word "Change" during the Obama campaign, and yet here I am using it.  As a family, we have sat down and talked about our goals for this year.  We don't like to call the resolutions because a resolution just asks to be forgotten and broken, so we call them goals.  This year we have decided to move from our home.  I am not positive where we will end up or the logistics of everything, but I do know that Heavenly Father knows what is best for us and as long as we follow his counsel and do what we are supposed to be doing, we will be blessed.  I do not want to spend next Christmas in the home we are currently in, and that is incentive enough for me.  Another goal we have set is that we will continue on our path to self-reliance.  Last year was a big leap for us as we were determined to get our finances and priorities in order so that we could move forward in the Lord's work.  This year is sure to bring excitement for our family.  Our doctor has told us that if we aren't pregnant by March/April, then we might want to "consider other options".  James and I have discussed this a lot...a whole lot!  We have prayed and for the time being we are saying that we will continue to do everything we can to prepare ourselves to welcome another spirit into our homes and if my body cannot and will not support this, then we will look further in to adoption.  This at times is easier said than done.  I never imagined that at 25 my body would decide to call it quits in the baby department...but that's what I get for making a plan.  I daily pray that we will have another and some days are harder than others, but I continue to work on my testimony and being the best me that I can be.  I have found that my focus has changed and has been turned a bit inward.  I am usually trying to change things around me, but I have come to understand that the only thing I can change is myself and my focus.  I am determined to be better and to continue to grow and to try my hardest not to let things of the world weaken my testimony and will.  Every day is a new day that i am determined to be excited about.  I don't want this year to go by in a blur like last year did.  I am keeping a family journal and I am trying to enjoy my boys as much as possible.  I am so blessed and at times I do have the "woe is me" syndrome, but I want to work on keeping an uplifting attitude and to help others feel that they are loved just by being around me.  I love how much I feel my Savior's love.  he has held me very tight these last few months and dried my tears and I think he is ready to let me stand back up again and I want to prove that I can do great things with the body he has blessed me with.  I am excited for this new year and I am thrilled that I have this day to live.  So until next time...